I
look around at myself and the world. The evolution of mankind that has taken
place is extensive and quick.
I
consider myself to be lazy, but perhaps it is because I like to think in depth
in everything I do and observe my life around me. The world is getting up and
acting so fast without questioning their motives behind their actions. “Society
and the media showed and told me and my family to this-so I shall not question
and act as I am told.” This is a mistake I believe. If one is for individual
liberty safety and a global community that works together then what is needed
is not extensive commonness and mediocrity, but individuality. While respecting
everyone’s individuality.
I
guess I should be saying something about my life and the trivial matters I am
affected by. But I feel affected by the world and the actions people make which
I have no choice but to trust as they produce and I must consume (food and
materials and immeasurable entertainment for my leisure).
Alright,
alright, I’ll conform for a moment and mention something, that bugs me.
Youtube, the voting of like or dislike. There are some videos where the music
artist is not well-known but is up and coming, they may have a beautiful voice,
great musical talent, a great music video and the song is sung about peace or
love-it doesn’t particularly matter-and yet there are numerous dislikes. It
makes me wonder if people are hitting dislike just for the fuck of it or are
against music and so while trying to find their soul searching through endless
youtube music videos, many filled with great expression or combination of tones,
melodies, and images, they realize the people making these videos are all
conforming to the trend of downloading a useless waste of time onto the
internet-and know that people will watch if bored or procrastinating enough-and
so dislike everything that is in their lives and dislike themselves for going
on youtube for they themselves conformed to the mediocrity of watching a bright
screen and not looking about their world to see the beauty and simplicity of
life, of cultures formed around simplicity being sucked away to the conforming
idea of greed, power, and civil liberty abuses to make people of a like mind
and hand money to a rich few that will grow richer as they will obtain more
wealth and more ability to obtain more wealth…yeah, that went a little far.
I
watch Trey Parker and Matt Stone’s South Park. There is an episode called Ass
Burgers. And a message in the episode (at least I got one from it that they
didn’t even try to form in the first place nor outright mention): The ten-year
old Stan Marsh sees the world as pointless and shitty. A group of people tells
him then tries to show him that the world is that way all the time and there is
a reason people can’t see the world as it is-which isn’t shitty-but a varying
repetitive world that is projected as an illusion of blissful leisure and without
worry or stress: created by a group of genetically mutated people, by aliens,
or by a ruling class that knows secrets no one else knows; but really I saw the
problem being: oneself. We blame problems on everything in our world around us
as out of our control. Take control of your own life, don’t go to see that
movie or watch that show or go to the mall for something you don’t really need.
Maybe leisure is listening to a new band while trying to play a new instrument
as you listen, or going out to volunteer, taking a hike, turning off your phone
and talking to friends (be sure you mention you wish to talk and not talk to
the backs of phones as they text or explore the internet). For life is not on a
screen, it is in front and all around. The reason the world is the way it is,
is because of people getting up and performing actions that had changed the
world. We have no one to blame but ourselves if the world is the way it is
because of faults or mistakes, negligence or not seeing all possible flaws or
terrible consequences that could befall us. We have only ourselves to blame.
That is why I think long and deep into everything around me, to not conform and
make the same mistake twice, three times, four-Damnit!-stop getting completely
trashed and wasting a perfectly capable brain that can do more for you-and
others-than you assume!...blame-and then change!-yourself, and find a way to do
so for the better. (But first find what the “better” truly is.)
This
may just be a journal entry, and just my thoughts but, doesn’t that count as
non-fiction? Anyway, some imagery: I type this on my laptop atop of a brown
desk beside two windows that provide my room much light, especially in the
afternoon when the sun hits the leaves of the tree outside my window and gives
me a feeling of bliss and hope as the light streams through to hit walls of beige
like gold sandy beaches with waves breaking along a spotted shaded shore from
tall palm trees. I sometimes lounge upon my bed as one would on a hammock
stretched out under the sun with the only thought being: when will this end?
Justin Vaisnor
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